thoughts you think when nightmare wakes you up.

i know it that i am hard to love, because i love too hard. i do things, many things unconsciously that may had burden those who is receiving. for me, its a sign of appreciation. but for some, it just make them owe me more. so i try not to get sad when people leave anymore. i simply tell myself that its about time. that they had stayed for quite some time. that its time to let go. i forgive and eventually forget. and then, let them in and get hurt again.

but i think i dont mind. 

this is a part of me, i dont wish to change. 

i will keep sayang the people who take me for granted. i will keep forgiving people who hurt me because they can. i will keep doing things for people even when they dont deserve it. for i hope that, i touch a bit of their soul and one day when they look back, they will remember me, only in a good way; the way i smile, the way a text gives me jolly, the food i bake, the goods i sew and simply me, the way i am now. 

i miss you really. come back. 

xx sue.