you know this is me talking to you.

when i let him in, i promised myself that i will not only take him for things i love about him, but the things that he might cant change for me. i promised that i will take everything about him; his family and friends, his anxiety, his insecurity, his being all over protective, his cranky self when i did something he doesnt like me doing, his ways of getting hiz nozeeee into my buziness zzz, his fat belly and lame jokes, the serious face he had when something bugs him, his sometimes crazy scary driving, his passion for history, politics and football even his busy life into my life. his every problem is my problem. his misery is mine, his sadness sometimes brought me tears. i took his life into mine, so we become one. 

this man does not only make me a better leader, he might even make me a better driver. i think a lot of how different my life has been with this man beside me. oh i wanna grow old with him, i want to even die on his lap. i really cant lose him now. at times, it feels like i dont deserve this kind of love, but hell forgive me, for this man, selfish i will be. he is mine and he is mine. pls, let me be by his side. i beg.