I nak busy

Ya Allah, sue sedih sangat. Sedihhhh sangat! Hahaha sedih sangat walaupun sedih ni datang dari diri sendiri gak. I haven’t talked to my fiance for quite sometime. We do talk but we aren’t talking, you get it? It making me sad that he could do it without me. I mean wtf am i even here? I rasa cam banyak gila benda yang i belum bagitahu dia. But i guess, we both didn’t care about it. Haritu i cam rasa overwhelmed sangat sebab subhanallah i busy sangat! It kept me uptight, always on the go. Always having to do something! I penat, tapi i happy. Now that i talk a step back and let me live. Tapi jadi camni plak 😂

Do I expecting too much? Ya Allah, pls. Kasi i busy sangat sampai i takde rasa langsung nak nangis or sedih. Biar i busy cari duit, limpahkan la rezeki sue ya Allah. Dengan masa yang sue spend untuk bisnes and kerjaya sue, limpahkan la rezekimu ke atas ku. Biar sue tidur dalam kepenatan. Biar takde satu benda pun yang boleh menyakiti sue ya Allah, walaupun end up sue akan sunyi. Tapi biarlah sue busy, dari sedih macam ni. And keep him busy too, so we wouldn’t even realized that we just stop relying on each other.