When i get upset... i have this bad habit of getting away, nak lari, nak diam. Mostly cause I’m sad, I know that if i dont walk away, i may hurt somebody. I say things I regretted later, and then I hate myself. Terlintas dalam kepala tadi, aku nak busy la pasni. So i dont have to think of silly things. Things that hurt and annoyed me. So I dont have to beg for attention and i dont need to pay attention to petty stuff. Tapi tak cukup busy ke aku selama ni? Nak ada masa baring baring sebelum tidur pun susah. Kalau tambah busy lagi taktahu la cemana.
When i get upset... i rather not talk, than fight. I rather cry it to sleep, than hating myself for saying things i didnt mean. Maybe its better that way, so nobody walk away from me. Mind you, im a mess. And if another person who is dear, to leave me.... i have no words for that. My head hurts and i wanna cry so bad. But thats better than anything else. Goodnight.
Cheer for more silence and crying to sleep.
Xx sue
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