i am lucky

I always consider myself as lucky. i have uh-meh-zing parents! who support me in whatever im trying to do. who believe in me when i think i couldnt. who knows me and my limits and let me know that they are with me. who pick me up when i fall on my knees. i have along and kakak to go to when i need uh money hehe and pep talk me into something when i need to move. i have adik adik who go mengada ngada at me telling me they miss me and make me feel like i should be a sister. they annoy the hell out of me but i love them so dearly ish annoying! haha also, i have many kind of friends. friends who hate what im doing, friends who walk side by side with me, friends who go insane tryna keep me sane, friends who always envy me. Nonetheless, they complete me. some are my strength, others are my inspiration. no matter if they hate or love me.

i always consider myself as lucky. i have food to eat, money to buy things i need, a comfortable bed to sleep, a phone to call my parents, a lovely boy to admire, a place to study, a bicycle to ride when i cant jog and a beautiful route with paddy field as my view.

so i think im lucky. thats why im always happy. this happy face i put on arent a mask or simply good front i show people. though sometimes it seems like it to me. this happy face were result of few years of practise. i train myself to be happy with little things around me. i taught myself to be grateful and always show my gratitude. im not always happy bcs things were easy on me. so dont say that to my face "sue senanglah, sue untunglah, sue ramai kawan, sue bijak bolehlah, ramai orang suka sue". no. dont say that to me. it hurts me more than you think it would. :(

i am lucky, but so are you. look around and count your OWN blessings.

loves, sue!