not a really good day

so emm my lecturer try to talk me into dropping another subject and i say no. why should i. so he says that he's afraid that i couldnt keep up. i told him, i havent yet submit my mini project i still have chances to cover up my carry marks. why cant you trust me. saya cakap dekat dia saya yakin. and he says if i shouldnt be overconfident. but im not. i know its going to be hard, i know its going to be a tough fight. but i believe that if i try hard enough, maybe i could. and if this fight, i lose; i wont have any regret because i believe i am trying my best. tak apalah kalau semua tak percaya saya mampu, tapi saya sir, saya yakin saya boleh. bukan overconfident, simply keyakinan. i just know it inside my heart that i wont fail myself. i wont. insyaAllah. so i will try, not to prove you wrong; but so in future you would trust me enough to let me fly. trust my ability enough, to do what i want to do and do what im supposed to do, at once. trust me.

if you couldnt trust me, who would? im not failing, im not drifting away. im learning. im trying to learn, so be there for me.  i read it somewhere, of how powerful the brain is, that if we can imagine something, our mind can make it real. im going to manipulate that power. trust me, put your trust in me. walk with me, watch me, help me, support me. i know you're worried, but you have to trust me. back then, i question people of why they would trust me when i couldnt trust myself. but now i am desperately begging everyone to believe in me, for in that belief, i'll keep going and if heaven pleased, make a change.